Preface
Not for a
minute did I ever dream that I would be penning the words of my story. However, by the grace of God and by the
unction of the Holy Spirit I will endeavour to do it justice. Like I stated in
the past, this is not the first stab but my third, the last and final attempt I
will to hopefully help some glean from repeated mistakes that always leave a
person deprived in a particular area of their lives, until true repentance is
achieved.
Having
tasted of the Lord's mercy and His wonderful grace I find myself in a place
where what the Lord has completed in my life is miraculous. Soon after the very
run on this first edition was done and dusted I thought that my journey had run
its course in specific areas of my life. I had hoped that the lessons I needed
to learn had worked their way into my life to bring about perpetual change, I
was sadly mistaken! Allocations of much more pruning was required. With a lot
more destruction on the cards! All those who have come to know and experience
the power of God through the gospel have their own story. This is mine over a
thirty year period…
"My
Story"... bears witness to the wonderful manifestation of grace which has
been and is still being applied to me by the mercy of God my Father, through
Jesus Christ, His Son, who is my Saviour and cementing His position as the love
of my life. I would love to claim my position in this regard as completely settled,
but the Lord is clear; “if we say we love Him then we will keep His
commandments”. How His love still covers me is a marvellous thing and I will be
forever thankful for his endurance in my life and continuously undergo to love
Him with my whole heart.
The reason
for a further refurbish to this original copy is that I felt that only half “My
Story” had been told and I wanted to highlight the stamina of my great God and
His commitment to the work He does in even the most stuborn individuals whom He
has chosen to lavish with His grace. Many make shake their heads in dismay as
this account unfolds, with questions like, will he never learn? Even though
your summations may be well founded the purpose for this final edition is to
highlight the unmeasurable forgiveness of this God of such immense love. If I
am capable in portraying that regardless of the blows I need to receive on my
chin from those who would choose to write me off as a complete failure, if only
it would bring liberation to one individual who would repent and call on the
name of Jesus then I have achieved my objective. God alone is the one capable
of turning disastrous situations into something of beauty. Eternity will reveal
this in amazement!
Because
of His wonderful mercy and grace, God brought me to a place where my flesh (my
will) needed to go through a process of destruction, and only by that process
was I able to experience deliverance. It is not enough to will something into
ones life, we must cross the raging river to get to the other side, and there
is no shortcut! It is a phenomenal
reflection that I find myself facing, even now as I put pen to paper. God is in
the business of eternity and not the now we so often get caught up with,
nevertheless we must come to our senses whilst we still breathe, if not we will
end up on the wrong side of heaven. He is not looking for sprinters but
marathon runners. All our flesh needs destroying, that which is carnal will
always be carnal and the sooner we learn to understand this is no more than a
tool used to see the wood from the trees; “For the mind that is set on the flesh is hostile to God, for it does not
submit to God's law; indeed, it cannot.
Those who are in the flesh
cannot please God.” (Romans
8:7-8) - The subtle nuances often lead us to believe
that we need only destroy the obvious. My flesh needed to be destroyed and
continues to require it to make way for the will of God in my life but do not
be fooled, it is the same for all and the sooner we learn this, the better. As
this book unfolds you will realise that often the choices I made in my life,
and certain incidences, had and are still having severe consequences. However,
God has the whole world in the palm of His hand and nothing can happen or will
happen without Him allowing it to happen. Even Satan operates by the permission
of God. Therefore, without destruction in my life there could be no deliverance
and it is the same for all whether they are aware of it or not. However it is
important not to blur the line in the sand when it comes to consequence as
opposed to forgiveness. God’s forgiveness is immediate, Christ offered a once
and for all time sacrifice. It is done and dusted; God has accepted His
sacrifice and all those who call upon the name of Jesus will be saved.
To those
who find themselves being a part of this account... "MY STORY", the
message is this; things are not always the way they seem. There is a deeper
underlying truth that we need to uncover which many will sadly miss.
"But God hath chosen the foolish things of
this world to confound the wise; and God has chosen the weak things of the
world to confound the things which are mighty; And the base things of the
world, and things which are despised, hath God chosen, yea, and the things
which are not, to bring to nought the things that are:"
(1 Corinthians 1:27-
28)
Signing off
Tyrone